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30.03.2022
Defrosting
Ja pierdolę… Uchyliłam wypartemu drzwi i teraz w niejakim napięciu, w niejakim rozedrganiu nasłuchuję co będzie…
No – fuck! – I won‘t leave you in peace! I won’t shut myself up!
I came to you transparent, naked, innocent…! I spoke my mind, I spoke my heart…!
And you were giving me those misleading double messages and a fucking see of keeping quiet – just to keep your ass at the safe side…
No, I won’t deaden myself… I’m not gonna slip into this lifelessness…
I have wanted reconciliation, but it won’t be untill I bring up the „ugly stuff”. I fuck the peace at the expense of deadness. It’s easy for the dead to be peaceful.
I’m pissed off! This small-empty-bullshit-talk, that you are giving me…! It makes me sick! Don’t get suprised, if next time, when you kick off with it, I throw up in front of your feet.
Asshole! Coward!
I’m still waiting for the apology for the defensive-offensive accusations I heard from you when I opened up before you and… nothing. Dancing around. Small-fucking-talk…! Last time you even took me by surprise and you gave me a hug! Don’t do it! First an apology for the hurtful projections, then we’ll see.
© małgo rosa